Wrote this to my team, I’m not ready for it to be over :’(

Since I’ve been on the softball team, I’ve been through the “saying goodbye to the graduating seniors” process three times, but never really thought about how one day that would be me. This isn’t even real I cannot believe I’m sitting here writing a goodbye letter write now. It’s always sad to end a season but this one hits me that much harder because 1. my years spent at Paul VI are coming to an end and 2. I’ve never been on a team so close as our softball team. I love each and every one of you and I will miss you all soo so much. It’s gonna be hard not seeing you all everyday, and even harder knowing I’ll never play with you all again:( Tears are already forming as I’m writing this and I haven’t even got started:(((

I was inOceanCitythis weekend with Brielle and Hannah and later on at my house my aunt asked if they were seniors too. I laughed and said no they’re a sophomore and freshman and she was shocked and she said she would never be able to tell cause of how we all acted the same age. That’s one thing I love about this team- some of us are 2, 3, 4 years apart but we don’t let that get in the way of our friendships at all. We always joke about how we were a family but when it comes down to it we really were one. I can’t imagine this year without a single one of you.

Vik: my husband lol what where would I be without you. I’m gonna miss our adventures so much like the girl dropping the water bottle and the bug in the car and being a half hour late to the bus and spending our night chillen in a car while a certain someone had to take people home. I’ll never forget those haha but I hope we have more to come.

Sam: I remember when we met freshman year cause you were our goalie for field hockey SAM THE GOALIE!!! At that time as baby freshman I never imagined we’d become as close as we are now. I call you weird but I love you haha like today at our game oh boy you were cracking me up. I will definitely miss you I wish you the best at de sales :))

Haley: This is kinda awkward because you aren’t in this group and I’m actually not even sure if you have a facebook but I’m going to write as if you are reading this. We’ve played together since freshman year with Maria what a character she was. We were always friends at softball but I’m glad we brought our friendship outside of softball when we talked all the time in Criminal Law. You’re little comments here and there can always lighten the mood lol

Jess: You’re the smartest girl I know and I know that you’re going places in life and gonna be very successful. Maybe you’ll even marry Andrew ;) We’ve always been close but I feel this year we get even closer and I couldn’t be happier. You’re one of the nicest people I’ve ever met. We need to hang out this summer cause I’ll miss you tooo too much! Oh and as I was writing this I was like what’s that piece of paper hanging out of my phone case and I pulled it out and it’s that picture you cut out for me from peer leadership…thanks for that hahaha

Steph: Thanks for the Pauction we’ve become like sisters. We spent so much time together this year between the Pauction and that time we drove around in circles before the Triton game and you let me spill out my crazy messed up life to you<3 And not to mention the Phillies game with Mr. Chambers that was definitely a memory that will last me a lifetime. The best part of that entire trip was the car ride home and finding out all the juicy gossip about the teachers :O You have to take me next year when you win it again! I love that our parents are friends cause that means we have no choice but to continue our friendship:)) Keep in touch please!!

Brielle: I don’t even know where to start with you. You’ve become one of my best friends this year and I can’t imagine living without you next year. I think you know more about me than half my friends in my grade. There are so many things I could write but I think that there’s just too many times with you that my mind is going blank. If I ever needed to get something off my chest (which is very often) I come right to you. If you don’t visit me next year I’ll cry but before that we need to spend lots of time down the shore on 35^th street :)

Dylan: You’re a dildo but my favorite dildo. It’s hard to believe that I’ve only known you for two years and we’re as close as we are! I annoy you a lot and you get very irritated with me but it’s all out of love<3 I love you very very much and I remember when me and Melissa used to eavesdrop on your conversations with that girl that left our school last year sorrrrryyy bout itt. I love your dog. IT WAS ONE TIMEEE. Hang out with me this summer if not I’ll go through dildo withdrawl

Ashlynn: The text you sent me got me choked up:( When I realized I was your peer leader I was shocked haha who would have thought a year from then we’d be where we are now. You’re boyfriend sits in front of me in sports marketing and I make fun of him all the time sorry it’s all out of friendship though. I’m going to miss you!!! You were the best because you saw/heard everything that went on during the game. You were the best manager and a great friend too. You’re such a sweet girl I’ll never forget you

Kenz: During field hockey season I never imagined we’d become as close as we did. Hard to believe I just met you this year and sometimes I forget you’re a freshman. You’re mom is so nice I’m coming over to sleep over soon and we’re gonna party at the train bridge YEEEAAAYEA!!$!@! We make fun of each other allll the time and we have the best memories such as the entire field hockey season with Coach Enders. I can’t wait to go down the shore with you and hang out this summer. I wanna come to a captains practice this summer so I can see you!

Meg: I think it’s safe to say that before this season all the players from last year were pooping themselves when we tried putting together the team and realized we had no third baseman. You were definitely a gift from God and it’s hard to believe you’re only a freshman with how amazing you are. This goes for all the freshman: when you’re all seniors I can’t wait to come back to a game because you, Kenz, Lex, and Gab are all amazing and you can only get better from here. You are definitely one of the funniest on the team and I remember in religion one time Mrs. Rossi yelled at someone in the hall and I knew right away it was you lmao. Thanks for the starbursts that one day me and my buddy Mike had a picnic in sports marketing

Gab: You are probably the sweetest girl I’ve ever met and you have the most beautiful curly hair. I don’t know how you balance softball and getting straight A’s you go girl! I’m really happy I got to know you so well this year and I’m gonna miss you when I leave so let’s hang out this summer! I don’t think I’ve ever heard a negative word come out of your mouth I love that about you. Hopefully if I get the job at the movie theater I’ll get to see you more often *fingers crossed*

Alexa: I thought you didn’t like me in the beginning of the year but hopefully that isn’t true now! At winter workouts I would think in my head like damn there’s no way this girl’s a freshman and then when I saw you pitch I was even more blown away. I hope your arm gets better soon because next year you take on the biggest role as leading the team as our pitcher I’m really excited for you! You’ve heard this a million times but you’re dad is sooooooo hottttt I’ll miss both of you a lot lol I can’t wait to come back to a game next year and see you running things!

There’s probably so many mistakes in this but if I proofread it I’ll start crying again and I hate crying so sorry guys. I really don’t want it to be the end. I’d do anything to go back to the beginning of this year or freshman year and live it all over again. Can’t wait to see you all at the softball party and I wanna see all of you this summer! And I’ll definitely come back to a game and visit me in college! To end it I just wanna say thanks to each and every one of you for contributing to the four best years of my life<3 

Senior year is unlike any other. It won’t hit you when you wake up for your last first day of school. It won’t hit you as you walk into Senior Hall for the first time as an official senior. It won’t hit you when you cheer at your last homecoming pep rally and attend your last football game. It won’t hit you as you go to your last homecoming dance and realize Prom is way better without the lower classmen and the DJ. It won’t hit you as you enter the floor to play your sport for the last time. It won’t hit you as you fill out the countless college applications. It won’t hit you as you write that generic essay letter that you try to use for all your applications. It won’t hit you as your college friends return for Christmas break and give you all their advice. It won’t hit you as you celebrate New Year’s with the friends you have known since childhood. You won’t feel it when you are having the time of your life at your last spring break. When May finally comes around and you realize that it is your last Prom, but you don’t really feel it when you are there having the time of your life. You begin to realize it at Graduation when you look around and realize that you will never see half of these people again. You will begin to see it more over the summer when everyone is getting their roommates, class schedules, and going to orientation. It still hasn’t fully hit you when you are sitting in your room packing up the past 18 years of your life, laughing with your best friend about all the stupid stuff you’ve done. You might feel it the morning you leave for college as that it is the last time you will see your room, your parents, and your best friend for like 3 months. It will finally hit you when you are sitting in your dorm room with a perfect stranger, that you have to live with for the next year. So make every moment of your Senior year count, you only get to do it once. College will be a lot of fun, but in the meantime, jump at every opportunity you get to do anything that you have ever wanted to do. Spend as much time with friends as possible, for it will not be long until you meet new people and inevitably grow apart.